Just got my UOL-results... it's TERRIBLE... i failed econs (AGAIN) n principles of accounting!

y can't i be cleverer in the mathematical area? y m i so dumb? y was i so lazy when my parents told me to study hard? Regrets come so late that i m so disgusted with myself. Where was I when all the other frenz were studying hard for upcoming exam? Instead of scoring better for econs, i failed it with lower marks! I tot i did it well this time round coz i could finished my paper this time, bt illusion only come too easy. I feel horrible for wasting my parents' money! how am i gg to tell them i m gg to be retained for a year and wasting another thousands of their money for my playfulness?

I was looking forward to my graduation tour next May, nw i hv to look forward to nx nx May... future was just sooooo near, and yet i let it slip away. nw i hv to reach further for it... frenz are all graduating. i m still here dwelling in my misery. They say that when ppl fall once, they see enlightenment... bt why din't i see enlightenment after falling so hard at JC? y din't i see enlightenment after failing last year? y din't i see the doom was ahead?

does crying help? my keyboard is soaking with my tears, can it wash out the looks of disappointments in my parents' face when i finally disclose the news to them? i dun dare to tell them, and yet i kn i HAVE to tell them... coz it's afterall their money i m spinning~ y din't i see that i m heading towards a dead-end? nw tt i m already at a dead-end, all i kn is i m feeling guilty. filty Al.