Been down with sore throat and fever for the past few days.. Ystd at work half way have to take early leave home to rest le! Jiawen says if i dun heal by Saturday, i m not gg for the nite cycling trip wif Laopos,xiaoqie n bro... crossing my fingers real hard le...
My colleagues keep saying my voice sexy worz... only tt stupid Jiawen say i sound like a transvasite (is tis how it's spelt?) ANYWAY, eating my 100th Fisherman's friend le... guess i hv the freshiest breath all day le... anyone wan kiss? LOL...
feeling freaking sick will make one vulnerable rite? Missing Jiawen like crazy nw... Times like this make me appreciate loves one more bah... den again, tt stupid toad wun b nice enough to bring me see doc de! i date him two yrs plus le... we nv go see doc before together once.. whaahhahha...
Working at CC nowadays not bad le... there's aunties who dote on me... gif me food to eat, bt tt time i ate the super spicy curry puff... tatz y my voice like tt nw... wahahhaha... they got lots of stuffs to eat... and sometimes even Pizza n KFC delivery *drool* as of now... i m eating their yam cake, bee hoon n baked rice... yummy`wahahhahaa
Leaving this job soon le... muz tink of some souvenir to get them! eck!
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Jiawen just sms-ed me... nw both of us are feeling down... stupid army.. stupid captains, instructors blah blah... y gif someone the hope that u can take back anytime? if everything is based of meritocracy... at the v least, dun gif tt person a hope till u confirm everything... u raise a person to skyhigh, and drop him without a parachute? isn't this almost considered murder? u ripped someone emotionally n expect them to be STRONG? booo! recently, there is almost nothing that can be considered happy in my life... haix... at times like this, i almost feel guilty for not feeling happier during small little blissful moments.
Chatted wif Yihong on the phone for hours the other nite... chatted from our sec sch days all the way up to university days... u look back, u winced n frowned upon stupidity bt u are grateful that they shaped u the way u are now...ta-da.. we come back to this fundamental questino: are we happy? are we satisfy with our life nw? I guess at one point of time in life.. there's always suicidal tots? suddenly i remembered Jude's words: let the day perish wherein' i was born... sorry if this is too depressing for some readers bt I may be cheerful bt NOT as cheerful as u might think i m.. Life isn't a bed of roses all the time.. it applies to everyone bah... due to my grassroot commitments, i hv to frequent AMKSS often... everytime i walk there, it's like walking back to time machine... the surge of emotions i feel is sooooooooooooooo upsetting! Mrs Ong (former Ms Ng- Netball teacher) is pregnant for 7 + mths... Ng KayPo is still as irritating... bt well... wat do u expect? Mrs Ismail is still as small... i suddenly miss the old times when we were in upper sec n hiding at the staircase when we skip lessons... hahahhha~ i sound like an old woman today worz... cannot hor... i care abt how ppl tink of me... even if i say i dun, i m lying can! boo!