I feel like Marianne from Sense and Sensibility. It's a great book by the way ppl... by Jane Austen. I understand y on earth did she screamed in the middle of London. It was the anguish of being mistooken. The feeling as if the whole world is collapsing because she has a stupid mother and Willoughby dumped her for money. Bt y on earth did i mention it here? I guess there is a ruler in everyone of us... and the day when things gt out of measurements, u juz wan to hv a total destruction within urself. Tt explains Marianne's high fever and her totally changed self after tt by marrying a matured Colonel Brandon. Urgh~ Tt is how i feel... the part on my Mum is juz... she is not stupid... bt she's obstinate. Trying to get round her would be a much harder task than asking a bull to jump into the water. So ppl, how can i ever tok to her? She's a difficult person... even my frenz who came before knows it. She would nv smile and she actually can find flaws wif Xin which i tot would be quite impossible. the tiniest bit of dirt on the floor would lead u to enormous amt of scolding. She admits tt she is petty and perfectionist. So does tt mean tt by admitting to ur flaws gif u grounds to manifest it into monstrous acts?
Den there's Willouhby... He loved Marianne wif all his heart... bt he loves money too... so he married some other gal. Wif cross reference... i tink Jiawen can be playing his role... he prefers soccer to me too though he swears n scream tt he loves me more. I guess Cleo is rite... gamers would nv admit they r addicts.
I remember screaming the whole place down juz because my dad pass a casual comment on me blocking TV. I juz screamed, yelled and shutted the whold world down. I pushed my mum out of the room and screeched. yes... SCREECHED.... guess tt decrease me to being this bimbotic Marianne when i hoped to be Elinor... cool and suave... handling every single problem as if she is gracing thru grass. Even when tt 2-timer Edward cheated her heart, gt engaged, got ditched and then coming back for Elinor, she handles the situation so suavely and only breaking down once when Edward came back for her. Man~ if i could be as cool as her, i can audition to be the nx Aunt Agony.
Strange... Edwards muz be a bad name. Always associated wif 2-timing. When i did this book for literature... i juz broke up wif Ed coz he was a bloody two-timer.. see the irony of the situation? i remembered Mr Singh mentioning how immensely i disliked Edward. haha~
Re-reading Jude the Obscure the other day. Man~ i love Sue... a woman's love for being loved often gets the beta of her, even if she hurts the man in the process.