Read the blog of the girl who got Tongue cancer here so interested readers, u all can click on the link if u wanna find out more about this girl... After reading this, I felt sucky about myself... i mean... WHAT THE HECK... here's a girl, fighting till her last breath to live on, study uni, get married n have kids, there m i whining what a tragedy my life is just bcoz i hv 4 papers coming up! eck! even mentioning it makes me seem sooooooooo minute! So ta-da! may God bless her!
Next, i went blog surfing after reading this girl's blog... stumbled across the famed Dawn Yeo's blog.. well... she's PRETTY! i mean... who cares whether she's really got her face surgically altered or not! She looks pretty! I tink she's a mix btw Fiona Xie n Maggi Q! eck! just looking at her make me feel like a nun... probably the next Jane in the street! k lah~ when i get married to a rich man, I'll hv a sharper nose, slimmer chin, extract all unnecessary fats out of my bod... eck! I'll be close to perfect! wahahahahha~ now cannot lah~ me no silver spoon in my mouth lahx! my dad stuffed pacifier in my mouth only! wahahahhahhha~
Went Econs revision class today, actually today i felt i actually learnt sth from econs for the first time... maybe coz i listen sooooo attentively for the first time? slowly, exam panic is starting to sink in... ONE MORE WK TO MY BIG FIGHT till 7th June! Yupz! den it's havoc time! i'll enjoy myself sooooooooo hard! tanning, drinking, shopping n singing... God.. "i yearn for u"- quoted from this sappy oldies that i dun remember the title of the movie of.... bt it's about this guy who went for war n did not see his girlfriend for years... somehow this sentence sprang into my brain when i mention all the havocs...
well~ the bottom line is~~~ i missed enjoying myself... ever since the bloody period directly after A levels, i had been working my ass off for retail therapy... for this hols, i dun wanna suffer, wanna tk up driving, yoga n maybe some make-up class! of coz i HAVE to work to pay off all these fees... bt u get wat i mean? I wanna make my life fulfilled! I dun wan to pack my life wif unnecessary things!! yupz... I'll do things like... got time go country clubs hv suana, jacuzzi wif a few frenz, manicure n pedicure... yupz! tai tai life! bitch ard wif a couple of frenz! go crazy... yes! go crazy! when was the last time i really went crazy? tatz a long long long time ago... suddenly i feel freaking old, when life lose its fundamental purposes, u are a slave to urself. So anyway, my resolution this hols is to relive myself as MYSELF, and not a slave to myself. Suddenly my mind float back to the times i was kayaking at pulau ubin, where there's only me, frenz n the sea~~~ me sweating like a pig at camps, taking photos at orchard during Xmas wif Xinyi n Veron... Holy Hell! i hadn't been myself for years? i let myself roll ard n grow fat! well.. those were the time when i was only 44kg... now already freaking 46kg! so u know mah~ fats grow fond of u once u lose directions. Y the sudden resolutions? coz after reading the girl's blog who promise to fight till the very end, I realise that life is freaking fragile, n youth, u can only have once. If that's the case, I wanna treasure what i have now- time which some don't have and live it to the fullest (how many times hv i said this already?) i know this blog is kinda deep compared to the nonsensical ones i usually write... bt yupz, this is exactly wat i'll do coming June. I dun want to live in regrets. :)