eeek!! I can't believe it! I hv pimples outbreak!!! *sob* haiz~~~~ I m looking uglier by seconds!
So anyway, school is still a bore... J din't help me tk the notes... haix... shd hv known... maybe i shd juz tk them on thurs... so anyway, ya rite~ I skipped Monday classes again! Geez~~~~~~ Bt it's worth the trouble... coz i need nt go sch so often.
Sometimes I m regretting it... maybe it could hv been beta if I could settle for this yr and retake my "A"s... bt nvm... since this is the path that I chose, I need to bear whatever consequences for my course of actions... for better or worse... Geez... this sounds like a wedding vow. I juz hope tt I yield the best out of wat I do. I m more or less a perfectionist... bt I m too lazy to uphold and sustain my ideals... before entering SIM... I told myself I m gg to be a nerd for four years, get a damn degree and make my career life rocks... bt tt flame of passion diminish the second I attend the second day of lesson... I was like: wat the fuck... this sch is more like partying! Bt den again~ I dun really join in the social life as they r more of clubbing and gatherings... I guess u dun really feel like u r in an Institution for studies... they are juz here to... show off? I dunno... with the skimpy tops and heavy make-ups... I feel like an audience to a 3-yr fashion parade... worse... many of which has those never-ending legs tt I dreamt off since the day I realise I m a female... ya... I m turning cynical...
so anyway, gg for KTV session wif KL, YK n BY tml... it's been a long time since I last saw them... long long time... I mean... I saw them individually... bt nv as a grp... still remember gg out wif KL earlier this yr... working wif YK n saw BY on a train~~~ woah~~~~~~~~~~ time flies!!!!!!!!!! it's been a yr!!! I dunno y... bt suddenly I feel old... I saw those young and crazy kids screaming in the TV for their Sg Idol... I was like... geez... if I were their age... I might juz be one of those screaming there! I still remember queueing up for Daniel Chan's outdoor performance when I was ard my crazy cousin's age... and she is head over heels supporting Sylvester Sim... so ppl, if u hv a few cents to spare... pls help my cousin... i hv better means of spending my limited consuming power...! Xmas is near... I m saving up for my new clothes... and my debts to settle wif my parents... -_-"' making me terribly hard-up now... luckily I m starting to gif tuition this Saturday... can't imagine gg without income!!! I might juz faint at tt tot of it!
I wish I can grow up~ sometimes I tink I m too childish~ bt there r times I tink too much~ and whenever I use my brain... there's pimples outbreak... how!!! I look so ugly!!! geez~ worse... it's been decades since I really work out... exercise and look healthy!! I feel so fat... luckily Yihong they all r inviting me over for slimming session wif them! can't wait for them to finish exams... den we can all gather at beaches, parks, swimming complexes to look pretty again~ *_* hmm... JW is gg to army soon.... it's time to build up my social network before I become a maiden in agony without anyone to turn to when he's in army... *dun worry dear, I will find GALS!!*
-there's no ugly woman, only lazy ones- I simply agree to this sentence... still remember my ugly rolling days in secondary sch with the worst case of pimples outbreak... ppl juz shunned at the sight of my hideous face... den i told myself to stop!!! and look pretty!! *winkz* ta-da!! though I m nt breath-taking pretty now... I feel better! at least I m within acceptable weight!! *winkz*
i believe in fate, and I know i will find u somewhere out there~