Made a big decision this morning... >_<

gave up my comfort zone n the job i thought I'l work fr the day i graduate till i can't work late nites and settle for a stable job....

And, so....... I've decided to hv a go at HDB.

I dunno if it's the correct thing to do. but while toking to daddy last nite, he mentioned that since i know what is the jobscope like a PA, why not just try sth new? He said no job has a do-till-you-die contract and so, if i really preferred the PA job, just switch after a while.

maybe it's his words and support, maybe it's mum's strong opposition against shift work.... maybe it's me growing up.... maybe i want to spend more time with jiawen who might be leaving Spore real soon.. I'll test water at a totally new area! for better or worse.

now that I've got tt out of the way.. HELLO soon to Hong Kong and a whole new wardrobe when i'm back!
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back from Jap lesson.. i shd b happy i actually passed thru a jap exam without even studying for it.. in fact, the marks were pretty good... bt i m actually being super fuckingly depressed.

i tot tt i've told n cushioned myself against being negative abt jiawen leaving, bt when words became reality.. things sux. i comforted myself with regular taiwan gifts; stores tt dun send to spore can be easily attainable; we can always visit... bt how come when things really crash into reality.. all i tink was vulgarities?

why now? why now when things are picking up btw us, army HAS to send him to aust in sept to nov, and then dec 2008 till dec 2010 to taiwan!

i dun wan to b the person saying dun go coz this is his future. be it our future coz he can save and get married, or his future with some other girl if we are no longer together by then.. in every aspect, at this point in time, this is the best for him. and i really WANT him to go.

as i told many ppl before, Love isn't the ONLY factor in life. you can't give up anything for anyone coz this is ur life u are living, and u have urself to be responsible for. and yes, even if i were the one gg overseas, I would want blessing n not frowns.

so tomorrow, maybe, I'll sms him, I really support you, with a smile-y face?

not today.