had just rejected the sales promoter job 7-9th june. the pay is too little.. no point sacrificing the immediate times after exam to do long hours of labour.. plus they want us to wear black shirts.. ie. i gotta buy those plain black shirts which is not provided... i calculated n calculated, after deducting money for the shirt, transport, tink oso not earning much le. so yupz... HAIX... will be as poor...
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went xiaoben's hse to mug today... at first tot she says wan make us pasta.. turned out her offerings was the spag wif cambelle (is tis how it's spelt?) soup... so yupz, we went kopitiam to ta pou..

the fishball there! MY GOD! GIGANTIC sia!!! really those newton cicus bombastic bombish bomb bomb fishball~~~ *fansinated*

so much to study.. angching has so much notes written out. at first i not scared de oso kanna scared le lahx!!! 2 MORE DAYS TIL END OF EXAMS!!!!!

right.. since those 3 days i not working, ppl date me hor!!
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07/06/07 (3.22am)

yes ppl, i kn first day of hols is supposed to be filled wif elation, excitement and extreme gratitude. but my hols started off in the wrong foot. e minute i step out of the exam hall... quarrelled wif jiawen. he hung up my call, and out of spite, i sat on my fren's car to avoid the mrt n went home another way. during my trip home, he demanded me to go back to where he is, really pissed off, so ignored him. he said some really hurtful things which i dun wan to mention here. i kn i wrong to make him sit there n wait coz i refuse to go bank n meet him... bt still... haix.. i start to question myself if he really meant every single word he said. usually when u are angry, u lash out most of the truth? i dunno..

he took a cab down to fetch me to watch shrek. the show was nice. love snow white, cinderella n sleeping beauty. whole nite, i try to pretend nothing happen. but on the way home, wateva i say he twist it back as a backlash against me even if it was just some casual chitchatting. really bth to the extent i broke down in front of plaza singapura... on cab, continued crying. he only apologised after i requested for it. does he really tink he's wrong? god ah.. one whole mth of exam stress n torture not enough? i got so stressed out during POA i had fever n gastric relapse le.. u hv to start my holiday so wrong?

reached home. sat at one corner, started crying all over again. i really tried forgetting wat he said. just as i told him.. i m trying hard. losing sleep tonite.