bt anyway... I hv sth more impt to announce~ Xiao bu dian gave birth on tt very faithful 24th Nov'2004!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel soooo deceited!!! I mean.. there i was tinking my hamsters are gg to be gays for the rest of their lives... then there come the hideous, monstrous family line, announcing additionals into the family... and the very fact that Xiao Bu Dian is a FEMALE!!!! A female!!! to tink I tot they were gays licking each other.... THEY ARE NORMAL!!!!!!! normal!!! so~~~viola! I m CHEATED!!! They are a couple!!! Geez! I feel so cheated... nothing can be worse~ I din't expect the new arrivals... there i was that faithful morning... wanted to change their food... and I saw a pool of red mass in the cage! zzz! anyway... I tink I muz get a hold on myself... I muz face the truth... so the question now is: wat shd I name those additionals?
I found reliable owners for 3 of those kids.. (btw... there r 6 kids when i last counted... bt I dunno if Xiao Bu dian ate any... coz she's always resting on tt nest...) I m so nervous... horror stories of those cruel mothers eating up their kids are constantly on my mind... actually I m suffering nervous breakdown soon... and this is y even my mensus came a wk earlier... to celebrate such joyous festive... actually I was terribly upset at the fact tt i was cheated of their sex... bt den I m sadder tinking of the fact tt I hv no choice bt to separate the couple soon after... U feel like a destroyer... and yet u are the one left with no choice... I feel terrible if anyone is to separate me and my beau... bt if tt happens... I can imagine how tt feels... it's like a big BANG!!
there goes the days of playing for Xiao bu dian and Xiao Xin... I hope they can tolerate the separation.
Saw Shi Hui (my ex-colleague in 4-Seasons) in SIM today... hehe~ surprisingly... this is a SMALL world... her frenz in SIM happens to be my frenz i made in SIM coz they were fr SRJC... and she is the current colleague of my bf... haha~ no wonder there is a saying tt we are connected with everyone around the world with the maximum of 6 gaps... I know Chenju, whose mum knows a reporter who knows Takeshi!!! so I m actually 4-gap distant from my dream-guy~ keke~
yeahooo~~~ fate is all we need in life to know whoever we want to know...
I m promoted to the rank of grandma with the arrival of a whole new generation of hamsters... actually to a certain limited and unsignificant extent... I m happy to witness the union and growing up of my beloved hamsters... I channel lots of love and dotings on Xiao xin and Xiao Bu Dian... they are my source of pride... taking pictures of them all the time... I love them to nuts... the tot of separating them had NEVER crossed my mind till the arrival of my grandkids... I used to be a sucker for cute stuff... and the arrival of new and small cute kids shd make me happy... bt now... I only can tink of the future for my kids... will they be lonely? I tink this is really unfair to them... coz we were the ones tt brought them together... and nw, we hv to be the ones separating them. I always tot tt separation by death is the only way out for my pets... now... everything has to change... even my concept. I feel elated and depress at the same time. My mind is in this constant contradiction. i want them to be together... bt the tot of having more babies terrorise me. I can't imagine waking up with another round of grandkids... I will really breakdown... I did the day Xiao Bu Dian gave birth... I was all tensed up... my mind was in this terrible whirlpool... and den I saw Jiawen who did nth bt threw me into colder water... I really feel damn down after tt... luckily the sight of old frenz perked me up and reminded me tt I can enjoy myself no matter what... Tt was when I can finally let go of the fact tt my hamsters gave birth. I dun wan to go through this phase again~ I know I dun wan to torture myself wif things I dun wan to face with.
So anyway... here I m... a brave grown-up~~~ *winkz* and yes... I m still tired!
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